I was a tomboy. I admire girls. Am I straight or not?

Hi Sandra, thanks for coming to us with your question.

It seems like you are questioning yourself a lot right now, which can be a pretty intense process. First of all, I’d like to say that I don’t think being tomboy when you were younger, wearing your hair a certain way, or preferring certain clothes has anything to do with your sexuality and potential attraction to girls now as an adult. Many straight women have short hair and hate dresses, and the opposite can be true for lesbian and bisexual girls too.

Now I’m a little confused about what makes you scared to be with a girl. Is it because it’s new? Are you worried you wouldn’t know what to do? Are you worried about what other people would think? Are you worried you might like it and then have to start questioning more? It’s completely normal to feel scared about trying something new. This isn’t limited to sexuality. Starting a new job, moving to a new city, switching schools, even dying your hair can be scary! So of course being with a woman when you’ve only ever been with men might be scary and intimidating. Remember though that it is often when we challenge ourselves that we discover and learn the most. If your fear is something more serious though (for example: your safety) then maybe you should re-think some things and proceed with your exploration when the situation is different.

Only time, and experiences, will tell if your feelings towards women are ‘only a phase’. Many people believe sexuality is fluid and changes constantly over our lifetimes, so technically we might always be in a different phase. I’m really happy that you chose to write to Alterheros with your question, I would suggest you keep seeking support and advice while you are trying to figure all of this out. There are also a lot of books available for young adults who are questioning their sexuality that might be helpful for you. So, Sandra, to answer your question of ‘what should I do?’, I think you should just keep on exploring, remind yourself that there is nothing wrong with being bisexual or lesbian, and that you have plenty of time to figure all of this out, and give yourself a break.

I hope this helped, please feel free to keep asking questions!

Hillary, for Alterheros

About Hillary Greer

Hillary is currently completing her Bachelor of Social Work at McGill University, hoping to continue on to her Master degree after. When she lived in Toronto, she volunteered and worked at an alternative youth and family counselling organization with Dr. Karyn Gordon. Since moving to Montreal, she has completed an internship at Head and Hands, and has now been involved with AlterHeros for almost two years! She am now doing an internship at the MAB-Mackay Rehabilitation center, working with families of young children with hearing impairments and developmental delays.

Being a part of the outreach team at AlterHeros has given me the chance to explore a wide variety of topics and connect with the queer community a bit more. I had a lot of emotional support growing up and was supported in whatever choices I made. I love being involved with Tell the Experts because it enables me to be able to connect with individuals who might be looking for that kind of support for themselves. Growing up, exploring and questioning yourself, and coming out can be difficult and sometimes scary, and I am thrilled to be able to help as many people as possible to make this journey an easier one.

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