Hi Mark !
As we often say, you don’t have to label yourself if you don’t want to do it. If you don’t want to be labelled as “gay”, it’s perfectly okay. But you seem to be aware that you have attraction to people of the same sex, and this happens to people in all cultures in the world, in all centuries, from the ancient greek cultures to each country of the world today.
Yes, some religious communities have tried to change people sexual orientation. But, as your behavior can change, your thoughts and your attraction are there to stay.
It is very sad that people suicide or attempt suicide, but research has shown that its more because of the negative perception of homosexuality or bisexuality than sexual orientation itself that people are killing themselves.
Hope it helped…
François, for AlterHeros.