Ever since I could rememeber I always remembered liking girls or looking at girls more. It wasnt until I was a freshman when things came together for me.

My sister was a lesbian and she had many lesbian friends. I became friends with 2 of her ex-best friends. But I became closer to one of them.  See these 2 best friends of mine were girlfriend and girlfriend. Lets just call them K and M… I started to have feelings for K but I didn’t realize what they were. I would get nervous around her. It wasnt until she told me that she liked me that I realized that I really liked her. I went to her house one night and she started feeling my leg and holding my hand.  Then I was trying to sleep she started to blow in my ear telling me not to go to sleep yet.  Then she kissed me. We kissed all night and it was great.

I told my best friend thinking she wouldnt tell anyone but she told like the whole school. It got back to K’s girlfriend M and M forbid me and K to be friends any longer. And K denied it for the sake of her and M’s relationship. Many people now look down on me for this. I still am not friends w/either M and K and it makes me so sad every day.

I still have not moved on and it has been 6 months since I messed around with my best friend and I still am in love with her even though she does not love me…….