I am asian male in my 40s. I have a best friend who is late 20s. We have known each other since he is 16. He is now married with a young son. We spend all our possible time together. Go to shopping, listen music, talk and share every experience. He know I am gay but never say anything out of respect for me. It didn't start this way, but I have fallen deeply in love with him. I have always been attracted but know he is not interested. Finally, I cannot take this anymore - I LOVE him beyond anything else. So - I finally tell him. I choose my words carefully, but make no mistake I tell him I am deeply in love with him and cannot imagine my life without him forever. He is married. Oh my God what have I done?