Since I was about ten, I've wished I was born male. In the last couple of years that desire has got very strong. In any sexual fantasies and when I masturbate I always pretend I'm a guy. I feel strongly attracted to extremely feminine men, cross-dressers and guys who wear makeup etc. Sometimes I pretend I'm a guy on chatrooms and flirt a little with girls. Because of all this I considered that I might be a lesbian, but I don't feel anywhere near the attraction towards girls as I do towards males. I never look at a girl and think they are hot or sexy. Straight and lesbian porn doesn't really do anything for me; only some of the gay and "shemale" stuff. I love men who look and act like women. All these signs seem to be really contradicting and I'm so confused about both my sexuality (though I think I am probably straight) and especially my gender identity. It's a big part of what's been making me very depressed these last few months.