I'm a girl, dating a girl. We have sex all the time, but usually the only way I can have an orgasm is by imagining myself with a guy, or if I'm drunk. When I was with a guy, however, I never orgasmed, and found the experience uniquely unpleasant.
I think women are beautiful, sexy and I get crushes on them all the time. I never get crushes on guys.
I'm ashamed because the girl that I'm dating is wonderful, and everything else about our relationship is wonderful and amazing and I'm happier than I've ever been. I'd like to be with her for a long, long time. She just gets really, really disappointed when I don't have an orgasm, so I started imagining myself with a guy and it worked.
My mom says that my not liking being with guys is because of my bad relationships with men.
Now I'm afraid that this might be true, and that if it is, I shouldn't be with this girl, who I really want to be with.
Can you please give me some advice or help?