I've been knowing this girl for like.a year who's now my best friend.. I could tell when I first meet her that she was confused about something.. we got close to each other kissed all the time, touchyfeely or whatever.. later had a sexual experience that she stopped that same day.. I told her.. that no matter what I would always be a friend and now where best friends... she became more open to me about everything.. telling me I'm the first and only guy she's ever been with. but she's scared to be with me because she done wanna running our friendship... but that's not the point... come to find out her last two years of high school she had a girl friend.. yep she was a lesbian.. I was so confused as to the way we were together.. now it's none of that we just hang out with each other and I can't help but make lesbian jokes to her about it.. cuz I'm hurt.. I tell her it hurts.. because I was patient and in the end all I got was a best friend.. but I still feel the same way.. help me.