Hi. I am a 12-year-old female that does not want to be female, but is not yet aware of any sexual attractions. I realize I'm a bit young, but this has been troubling me for 2 years now, ever since I got my first period. There is this boy at school that I might like, but I'm not really sure, and I don't really think I am in love with him for some reason. But, I have also found that when I think of having a relationship with someone, I see myself as a man with a woman. I have told my parents that I believe myself to be a transsexual. I am beginning to have suicidal thoughts, and I want to stop them before they get to a extremely serious stage. I wanted to know if there are any support groups in California, and if you can provide any help as to how I can survive like this. I really need help before I try to hurt myself, because right now, that seems the only answer, but I know it's not what I'm supposed to do. Please help me.