I am 18 years old and I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 2 years. I do love him and find him good looking as well. I sometimes question myself whether I am attracted to him, but this might only be my paranoia. I started liking him back when we met mostly because of his personality rather than looks. I have liked several guys while I was younger but my present boyfriend is the first one I have had an intimate relationship with. Recently intercourse had been painful and I do not always feel like doing it. When he wants it I have a hard time getting aroused. I also noticed myself looking at girls often, but I always thought it is because I am comparing myself to them, or if they are pretty I would look at them. I have been feeling depressed lately because of several reasons and also have had some fights with my boyfriend. Why do I find myself not into having sex, or thinking about him in a sexual way, and is my behavior towards girls normal ?