Tag: STRAIGHT


I have tried out different labels, asexual, queer, lesbian, straight ...

Hey, so ive always sort of felt i was bisexual. since probably around 8, however recently (probably like 13) i realized that thats not true. i feel uncomfortable around men, im not sure if its just like a phobia or something to do with my dad (as i never knew him) the idea of kissing or intimately touching a man makes me extremely uncomfortable, ive had boyfriends in the past and being physically close to them is really really hard for me. even emotionally i dont know how to let them in, im worried it will always be this way as ive tried so many things and its all yet to work. i have tried out different labels, asexual, queer, lesbian, straight and nothing seems to fit right. for a little while asexual is what i went with even though i didnt think it fit right, because im not sexually attracted to anyone. being close to girls has always been easier for me, ive even kissed a few, hugging hand holding etc etc just works better but im not sure if its because i dont like females or because i do. it all just sort of blurs together and i never know what im feeling. i grew up in a home that wasnt very affectionate and so i was thinking maybe that had something to do with it? my parents didnt like eachother that much and fought a lot and again, i thought that mightve been a reason as to why i cant make meaningful relationships. i dont know really maybe this was a bad idea but if there was anything you could help me with, or anything you could like clarify for me it would be great. please get back to me :). Lala


I took a molly pill and went to a club ...

Hello, im 23 year old on November 2.. I took a molly pill and went to a club where i had my first questioning on if im gay since a man looked at me from distance.. Since this day I started overthinking and checking and obsessing over guy and gay thoughts.. I dont go a minute without thinking of it and its gotten to the point where i dont want to be with girls when truly ive always been straight and loved and been atttacted to them.. my loss of desire and appeal for girls and surely ramped up my belief i really am gay.. now today im at a point where i can barely work through a shift of 8 hours so i had to adapt and open up to my close friends and tell them I might have to label myself gay for now to help cope with my anxiety.. Idk what to do but i just wish i was like before and just attracted to girls and still want to be straight and not gay.. Idk what to do but im definitely depressed and unsure of myself but everything seems like im gay..