I hate that I am attracted to men…
When i was first entering puberty i was heterosexual and had fasination with the female body. Then around the age of 10 that fascination switched to men and it has been that way ever since, reason unknown. I grew up hating that I was attracted to men and a part of me still hates the 'gay' me. Recently I began accepting the fact that I could be gay, and both friends and family has been very supportive of my desicion. However even now I don't know what i am. I am physically attracted to males but emotionally attracted to females. I find this rift grows when I add in the fact that I want kids, I want to offer a life what my mom AND dad gave me. I want to continue my own flesh and blood with a wife I love but I'm scared that I will be unfaithful and go back to guys, because I'm more attracked to them physically. I tried boyfriends but they just turn to sexual flings and most guys a meet are TOO gay for my liking, however there have been possible relationships. I feel so torn!