Tag: orientation


It’s impossible for me to embrace “gay” as a label ...

Are my feelings normal? What should I do? I don’t know if I can stand these feelings. I’m struggling a lot with my sexual orientation in recent years. Till 2 years ago, I found myself attracted to boys in my class, constantly trying to catch a glimpse of their butts or bulge. I also enjoyed gay porn, and loved looking at pictures of men in underwear. However, over the year, I began to look at straight porn, often in form of animations. My sexual feelings also changes, as I find myself aroused from watching straight porn. In fact, I suddenly find myself less attracted to guys, even though romantically, I still can’t imagine myself with a girl. Swimsuit models often give me semi-erection or outright hard on, while gay porn becomes dissatisfying. Though I usually have gay sexual fantasy, I sometimes imagine being a hot girl having sex with hot guys at school. Nowadays, I develop this deep worry that my gay feeling were fake, and nothing but a phase, which deeply troubles me since I feel so much more comfortable being gay or at least bi. I began to pay attention to how I conduct myself to see if I was “too straight” or “too gay”, trying to match my internal feelings. Contact with guys doesn’t seem to turn me on like it used to, even if I find them attractive. When I’m at my worst, I sometimes focusing excessively on gay guys and gay porn, trying to masturbate to them to confirm my emotions. Yet, I often ended up watching straight porn, and becoming more aroused by them. After each straight masturbation session, I feel bad for enjoying them - a feeling I never had with gay porn. Even when I tried quitting porn for an extensive period (usually a week or more), I find myself in the same situation. At this point, I don’t even know what to do anymore: I tried accepting my feelings, but my hetero side just doesn’t feel right. At the same time, it’s impossible for me to embrace “gay” as a label as this point, seeing that it doesn’t reflect how my attraction is so confusing.


My peers tease that I am gay – but I ...

I'm peter,15 years old....Since last month I'm afraid of turning gay.....but i don't want to as i have fell in love only with the opposite sex....and i don't think i will fall for men in the future...but at school I'm very friendly with girl and i always like to crack jokes among them. Some boys always say that I'm gay. When they say that I'm gay...i feel anxious and angry.....during my life time,i had watched only straight porn not gay porn.I don't know why they say that I'm....are they jealous that girls talk with me??or am I gay???.......since I'm very anxious and this is affecting my sex drive.I don't want to become gay but since they said that I'm gay ,i becoming very confused.....am i straight ???am i gay???or am i bisexual???


I’m confused by my dreams and if they mean that ...

I am 19 year old female, and I am really confused about my sexual orientation. I do not feel attracted to neither boys nor girls, but I am fine when I see two women involved in a sex relationship. When I think about men I do not feel like beign touched by them. All this things really uptset me, because I think that it is not supossed to be like that. Since I am 15 years old I have dreams having sex with boys and girls, but I can not see their faces; and I do not like these dreams because I do not want to dream like that, and most of the time I am scared to fall slept because of it. I do not know if all these dreams and the way a feel makes me a lesbian or bi. I would like to say, that I have never been involved in a relationship with any gender. I hope you can help me understand what is going on. Do I need a therapist ? if yes, please tell me where to call to. Thank you so much



My husband likes my boobs but seems gay

Is my husband gay or bi? My friends have always told me he is gay (including gay friends). When we started dating he never stopped talking about his gay friends. During the relationship he would always tell me how gay men were looking at him at the gym. He flirts with gay men at work and tells me it's only joking. He can spot a gay man a mile away and always looks at him. He knows all the gay sayings etc. He likes anal touching and anal sex with me. But he loves my body (boobs and all). I am so confused, please help. Once he told me he had been gay before we met and then said he was only joking. Do you think he is gay or bi. He said other gay men said he is attractive because he dresses well and looks after his appearance.



My friend touches and kisses me, is he joking around ...

i have become very good friends with my friend who i started to hang around a lot with in September, and we have got very close, i have fallen for him deeply and cant stand it when i'm without him, i want to know if he is gay/bi though, he always jokes around saying "i love you" and you're "sexy" and stuff. i know it sounds stupid but sometimes it seems like he actually means it, he touches me and has even kissed me a few times. i have also kissed him a few times and he hasn't cared!, he's at my house every day. nearly all day!. he always sleeps at my house too when he can. i cuddle him like holding him in my arms and he doesn't care either. He also put his hands down my trousers once and rubbed.. he didn't say he was joking afterwards. He has done this a few times. ahh. i like him soooo much but i don't know if to ask him if hes gay/bi... i don't know how he will react or ruin our friendship. :( . but would a straight person do all that though?? but I mean he does this most days, please help me..




What is happening to me ? I love my boyfriend, ...

hi! my name is laura and i m 19 years old. i have a problem with my sexuallity. i like men. i have slept with my boyfriend many times and i have enjoyed it. i am in love with him. i have had a friend who is atracted to both male and female. after having her story heard, i have thought about it many times. i have tried to get the thought out of my head but it keeps on bothering me. i don't feel comfortable when thinknig about women. i feel disgusted but yet i orgasm. i would never go to bed with a women and it doesn't seem like love to me. i don't feel happy when thinknig about women touching me but i can not get the thought out of my head. i feel special and sexually attracted to my boyfriend and am planning to get married after college to him. why do you think i orgasm when thinking about a women touching me but i don't like it? i tried touching a women but i hated it! i felt disgusted. what do you think is happening? i love my boyfriend and i don't love women so why is this bothering me ?


I hate how religions portray homosexuality

I hate when people start with religion and sexuality. They tell us how this stupid book says we can't be gay or whatever. They say its unnatural and try to 'FIX' us or abuse us. What if we don't want to be fixed, I certainly don't want to change my sexuality and third gender which I'm sure they are against too. Instead of trying to find a cure so people can be happy too, why don't they just leave us alone? My dad always brings up this stupid thing about how gays are wrong and how having same-sex intercourse is like doing it with animals. I told him that it's completely different because that's all about sex rather than sexuality and the animal can not make a mature choice as to if it wants to because it cannot speak so it's like RAPE, which is wrong. I'm really getting annoyed with the world's views on gays/transgenders and everything else. It's sickening. I want to help stop this madness but I don't know how. What can I do?? I feel so hopeless that the world is doomed to be forever like this.



I am attracted to men sexually, but I go out ...

I have fantasies about men and maturbate while thinking about men on my cross-country team. And I also masturbate while thinking about pictures of naked men I can find on the computer. And I had my penis sucked by one male and I sucked his penis as well. But right after I'm done with everything I still don't lose interest in men. But I do not date men. I only date women. I am attracted to women in terms of going out with them but not sexually. What does this make me? Should I tell the men I want to have sex with the most how I feel or just keep it a secret? Should I ask them to have sex? I am just unsure now because I am attracted to them for different reasons.