Tag: Masturbation


It’s impossible for me to embrace “gay” as a label ...

Are my feelings normal? What should I do? I don’t know if I can stand these feelings. I’m struggling a lot with my sexual orientation in recent years. Till 2 years ago, I found myself attracted to boys in my class, constantly trying to catch a glimpse of their butts or bulge. I also enjoyed gay porn, and loved looking at pictures of men in underwear. However, over the year, I began to look at straight porn, often in form of animations. My sexual feelings also changes, as I find myself aroused from watching straight porn. In fact, I suddenly find myself less attracted to guys, even though romantically, I still can’t imagine myself with a girl. Swimsuit models often give me semi-erection or outright hard on, while gay porn becomes dissatisfying. Though I usually have gay sexual fantasy, I sometimes imagine being a hot girl having sex with hot guys at school. Nowadays, I develop this deep worry that my gay feeling were fake, and nothing but a phase, which deeply troubles me since I feel so much more comfortable being gay or at least bi. I began to pay attention to how I conduct myself to see if I was “too straight” or “too gay”, trying to match my internal feelings. Contact with guys doesn’t seem to turn me on like it used to, even if I find them attractive. When I’m at my worst, I sometimes focusing excessively on gay guys and gay porn, trying to masturbate to them to confirm my emotions. Yet, I often ended up watching straight porn, and becoming more aroused by them. After each straight masturbation session, I feel bad for enjoying them - a feeling I never had with gay porn. Even when I tried quitting porn for an extensive period (usually a week or more), I find myself in the same situation. At this point, I don’t even know what to do anymore: I tried accepting my feelings, but my hetero side just doesn’t feel right. At the same time, it’s impossible for me to embrace “gay” as a label as this point, seeing that it doesn’t reflect how my attraction is so confusing.






I’m starting to like men but I still like women, ...

Since i was 9, i watched a muscle video and my "thing" auto grown, since then i fapped on muscular men on websites, and then i realized i was like being gay. i have more girl friends than boys, because girls were friendly in our school. and im starting to like men but still have liking to women, how can i be straight?


I am aroused by pictures of female genitals, is it ...

I’ve considered myself heterosexual all my life.I had and still have romantic and sexual attraction towards particular men.However, there is one thing that is haunting me, namely I am able to be genitally aroused by the pictures of both male and female genitals.I began to masturbate when I was 5 or 6. When I was 8 or 9, I used to masturbate while looking at playboy pics, which was the only sexual thing in my environment at that time. I remember I used to fantasize about myself being one of those women posing for men; these fantasies accompanied masturbation as well. Now, as I am older, I don't react in that way anymore.However, I noticed that I am still able to be aroused by the pictures of female genitals. I tried to imagine myself having sex with a woman, but it simply doesn't appeal to me. Am I bisexual because of this arousal? Can I still name myself heterosexual? Or maybe it arouses me because I associate it with oral sex performed on woman(I'm virgin and use porn to masturbate)?







If I masturbate while thinking about men, does this mean ...

I think about men when I masturbate but I like women. I don't know if I'm gay or not because of this. I get called gay at school because of my voice. My voice has deepened a little bit since the 7th grade. I have had sex with a girl already and I'm totally straight. I love women. But I have emotional feelings for women and I don't know why I can't have physical feelings. So what I'm trying to ask is... if I masturbate while thinking about men and have physical thoughts, does that mean I'm gay?