English is my second language, I'm sorry in advance if mistakes are made or if its a bit muddled.
I'm questoning my gender identity.
I am assigned female at birth and my behaviour and clothing is party female and male. I sometimes feel like a female, other times I think I feel like a non binary person (this is new to me, I didnt realise I could be non binary). The male part of me is mostly shown by my clothing, talking and behaving. I feel less strong like a male than I do like a female/non binary person. Maybe I just have male traits and society makes me feel like a woman cant have these traits.
My clothing is mostly female since I am a bit uncomfortable with mens clothing in public, my social anxiety makes it worse. The past year I've been wearing more wide and larger fitting clothes because they are very comfortable and I feel good in them.
I dont like societies view on how men and women should behave according to their gender assigned at birth. Im planning to let these 'rules' rest beside me and just be who I want to be, wether that is with female or male traits. I am Julia.
Now on to the body experience. I dislike my female body very much. I dont like the shapes, they make me feel nauseous and sad. I am planning to do surgery to remove my breasts. I am not comfortable with my genitals either but I'd rather have female than male genitals.
I feel a bit weird about it because its hard to explain, even to myself. I cant put my finger on what I feel exactly. I was wondering if someone on this site has an idea of what I might be experiencing.
Thank you for reading and I hope you have a lovely day and dont forget to be your most authentic, beautiful self. :-)