Tag: exploration

I’m questionning my gender identity, but it’s hard to explain, ...

Good afternoon, English is my second language, I'm sorry in advance if mistakes are made or if its a bit muddled. I'm questoning my gender identity. I am assigned female at birth and my behaviour and clothing is party female and male. I sometimes feel like a female, other times I think I feel like a non binary person (this is new to me, I didnt realise I could be non binary). The male part of me is mostly shown by my clothing, talking and behaving. I feel less strong like a male than I do like a female/non binary person. Maybe I just have male traits and society makes me feel like a woman cant have these traits. My clothing is mostly female since I am a bit uncomfortable with mens clothing in public, my social anxiety makes it worse. The past year I've been wearing more wide and larger fitting clothes because they are very comfortable and I feel good in them. I dont like societies view on how men and women should behave according to their gender assigned at birth. Im planning to let these 'rules' rest beside me and just be who I want to be, wether that is with female or male traits. I am Julia. Now on to the body experience. I dislike my female body very much. I dont like the shapes, they make me feel nauseous and sad. I am planning to do surgery to remove my breasts. I am not comfortable with my genitals either but I'd rather have female than male genitals. I feel a bit weird about it because its hard to explain, even to myself. I cant put my finger on what I feel exactly. I was wondering if someone on this site has an idea of what I might be experiencing. Thank you for reading and I hope you have a lovely day and dont forget to be your most authentic, beautiful self. :-) Julia

What if I stay in this relationship for the rest ...

I've been in a relationship with a queer female person for a year now. I've never been in any other relationship. We're in a very happy and healthy relationship together. But, I'm worried about the future. What if I stay in this relationship for the rest of my life, and never have any experiences with other people, or with people of other genders? I feel badly for thinking this way, but the both of us starting CEGEP has me thinking of my future. My partner and I talk about everything, but I don't want her to feel like I don't want to be with her by telling her this. Though they're very supportive of my queerness, my parents might like the idea of me "trying a relationship with a boy too", so I feel like they aren't the best people to ask. And I have no queer adults in my life to look up to who. I don't know what I should do or who I should talk to.

Did same-sex sexual abuse turn me gay?

I'm 20 years old and would like to know something. It's kind of a weird question to ask, but I will anyways. When I was 7 years old, I was molested by a 40 year old man on several occasions. I didn't know it was a bad thing to do at the age of 7. I feel so betrayed now and hurt. This man was my first sexual contact with anyone and I wanted to know if he made me gay?